March!

so far 2012 didn't go the way i wanted.

firstly my uncle hasn't gotten me my phone yet.

secondly i lost my purse in school.

sad part is i had my RM 50 untouched since 2009? or 2008?

and even my 20 sing dollar which i collected every year.

total lost less than 150?

and i just had to let someone took it behind my back in school.

march march march.

march test.

although i can't really focus i have to still study.

cause i'm in science 1.

gosh

the pressure of my sister studying and i'm not.

gah.

oh oh birthday!

i really hope i can get this from my uncle by my birthday.

but i doubt.

:(

i really want a

and a new purse

and a water bottle

and so much more to list.

gah.

saddest thing is my uncle's been avoiding us since he came back. :(

i dowan no iphone no more i want XL!

2012

It's 2012!

And it's super duper HOT!!

I'm sweating like a mad person.

School's starting very soon!

I'm nervous for SPM!

I know I still have like 10 more months or more to worry.

But still.

I'm scared I can't cope.

I'm scared I don't get what I expected.

I'm scared I'm not prepared.

Okay.

I think I shall really really.

REALLY

CHILL!!!

Because.

I DIDN'T STUDY THIS YEAR END HOLIDAY!!!

I was.

I was.

Busy.

Having.

Fun.

:)

Oh man!!

Guess I've to be really strict to myself this year. :/

2012.

I've to separate my

Play time.

Study time.

Tuition time.

Shopping time.

Daniel chai time.

And second play time.

:)

Yup! I'm special.

That's why I have 2 play time! :D

Hopefully mum decide to change her mind to get us a car again.

When should I take my driving?

Hmmmm. :)

I don't wanna wait till may but I wanna learn auto straight.

I think I'll just take manual la. :/

Oh oh!!

And for you.

Yes you're the only one reading I think. :)

I'm really glad you changed.

I'm really happy that you're gonna run through every obstacle.

I'm really glad to know you.

Thank you Daniel chai! :)

This year.

I'm gonna set my goals.

1st is to save up my money.

So that I can shop right after SPM.

2nd is to be over well prepared for every test, exam and SPM.

3rd to make everyone happilly smiling. :)

Hope this 2012 will have no chaotic moments. :)

Digi IPhone 4SURE I DO 1ST

What is the first thing I will do with the

DIGI IPHONE 4S?????

Is that really a question?

If that really is a question,

Everyone in their right mind would say,

TALK TO SIRI!!!!!! :)

And YES!

I myself would too!

I can't wait to have my hands on the IPhone 4S!

And when I'm sad and lonely,

No one to talk to,

I'll be like:

Me ; Siri

Siri, I'm lonely.

Hopefully Siri replies

No you're not! You have me! :)

Awwwww! s2

I love you Siri!

You know you love me,

Xoxo, Siri.

Hahahahah!

Or or!

Siri, can you help me with my homework, please?

Pretty pretty please?

Sure! Just READ them to me!

{blah blah blah, mumble mumble mumble}

1)A. 2)B. .........

Hahaha! It'll be so awesome then!

Siri, which is the cheapest iPhone 4S plan in town?

Everybody knows, it's DIGI!

DIGI, I'LL FOLLOW YOU!

:)

Digi IPhone 4SURE MOST AFFORDABLE

Why is Digi's IPhone 4S plans the most affordable?

First,

Its the cheapest plan between other iPhone 4S plans around.

Obviously. :)

Second,

IGet SAVINGS!

With Digi's lowest monthly fee of rm55/month.

I get an iPhone 4S and even save my money for shopping too! :)

Third,

IGet MORE!

FREE CALLS + SMS +MMS

to all local network.

With this, I won't be worried that my line will ever get barred anymore! :)

Fourth,

IGet UNLIMITED!

FREE INTERNET WITH NO EXTRA CHARGES

Meaning,

I won't get the shock of my life when I exceed my monthly Internet quota! :)

Fifth,

IGet UNLIMITED!

Internet Roaming from 36/day In 29 countries.

So, even if I travel I won't get lack behind from the latest news!

Or even gotta wait for the bad Internet connection of hotels which disconnects most of the time! :)

What more can I ask for, for this awesome

Digi iPhone 4S plan! :)

For You

For you I've cried the whole day and night.

I still don't understand how life is this unfair.

Maybe you've changed as well, not just me.

And I know you read every single post these past few days.

And I know that you know all these post are for you.

But what I don't know is why are you still not trying to make a difference?

But I should know.

You never do.

You've change from what I've seen.

From last year.

From the day you started to talk to me.

From the day you started telling me bed time stories.

From the day I fell in love with you.

Till the day.

The day you ignored me.

The day you left.

The day you made me cry.

You were THE Mr. Perfect.

You were the nicest, sweetest, kindest, cutest.

And even the one that made every single day of mine.

SHINE.

I smile every single day.

I smile every time I think of you.

You made me feel that I'm that someone special.

You made me realised what love is all about.

Every single time we fought.

I cried to myself quietly at nights.

I tell myself.

I'll make it better.

For you and for me.

I won't give up.

To continue loving you.

And for you to love me back.

As much as I do.

Maybe you should too.

Make it better for us.

But the thing I hate most about you.

Is not putting me first.

You only know one thing.

And that one thing is.

Not to forget your friends even if you guys left high school nor have a gf.

The only thing you remember, is that.

I don't know where you get that from.

And you always say that your other friends lupa kawan.

Ya, I know you don't.

Which just irritates me.

On those nights.

That I want to spend the cold winds with you.

Walking through the most beautiful places with only the 2 of us.

Dazzling under stars.

Sharing the air, the moon and the pathway with only you.

For us to spend the night on the most romantic and nicest place.

You'll never fail to reject me.

You'll only want to stay close with your friends.

Couldn't even afford to walk me up at night.

Like those days you'd do.

Now you'll ask someone to walk me up.

Putting someone you love, first.

Is just what I'm asking for.

You called me on Christmas to wish me.

And you made a date with me on Monday.

Then you cancelled it.

Fine.

But the reason you gave.

Wasn't any good to accept.

Then you made another date with me on Tuesday.

But you never came, call or even text.

Tuesday went and today is Wednesday.

You said you missed me but how many days since I came back?

And you still haven't see me, find me?

Cookies I made in the middle of the night.

For you I stayed up till 5.

I thought I would see you when I came back.

But no.

And hand you a freshly bake cookies.

For Christmas.

But no.

We've fought many times.

But yesterday was the worst I've cried.

Till today.

You haven't spoken to me.

I really feel like throwing those cookies I made for you.

Away.

And never have to see it.

Or never have to bake again.

I've been really hurt to an extended limit.

I cried last night.

As badly as I got hurt last year.

Like that time I was hurt.

And you asked me to cry out.

Let my feelings go away.

I'm hurt so badly.

I've no idea what to do right now.

And to even know that you're out there somewhere.

Having fun when I'm here hurt.

And the reason is you.

The year is going to an end.

Should I really have the worst ending this year?

When will I finally have the best year of my life?

I wanna walk.

Walk till I'm really lost.

Lost till no one can find me.

Lost till that's the end for me.

Lost till ive no idea what love is.

I wanna run.

Run till I fall.

Fall till my feelings wears off.

Fall till I've no reason to be alive.

But I can't.

I can't let my selfishness be.

Be the irresponsible person in my family.

I'm very sure you read this.

I've never have the intention to hurt you.

Never.

A Million and One Pieces

I can't bear to not think of you even a second.

Eventhough I doubt you do.

You broke my heart into a million pieces.

Eventhough you said you couldn't bear the pain of hurting me.

You're scared of seeing me cry.

But you're the cause I cry.

And you'll never apologise, never will and never did.

Whenever I cry I feel my heart tears.

I'll never fail to say I'm sorry even if you were wrong.

My heart mends when I do.

Cause I see you and I smile.

But do you feel the same?

And when it all goes back to me getting hurt again.

The mended heart tears it ways down to a million pieces.

Today I feel it has been crushed?

Into a million pieces.

I fill my empty time to not think of you today.

But obviously I failed.

Again and again.

You said it again, you were gonna find me today.

Of course, what am I thinking?

Waited all day.

A text or a call.

But none from you.

Now that I think back on the days we went out.

I'll have to ask you out.

And when we fight.

I'll have to call you in the morning to remind you.

I'm sure of something.

In pains I cry.

For you I cry.

Why did I tell everyone that you're the best guy?

The nicest person?

And why did my bestfriend says you treat me the best?

I've done all sorts of things to make you happy.

To walk through this bumpy road you're living, with you.

The surprises.

And what I get is ignorance?

I'm sure you don't think of me every second in your life.

Because of you do.

You'll find me.

You'll find me whenever you're free.

I've never sit on the ground.

Look up in the sky for hours.

Enjoying the cold wind, night skies and bright stars.

With anyone.

Nor a sober you.

This I've dream a million and one years but never did one day of this.

Came true.

I want to be happy.

Lively.

Cheerful person.

I want to walk alone in the dark on streets.

But no one allows.

Cause it's dangerous and it gets people worry.

I want to do all sorts of things that I've dream.

With the person I loved.

The person I chose to love.

The person I'll love forever.

The person who endures my pain.

The person who loves me more than anything.

I've made my choice to study well so I can do what I want.

But I've been lazy these two months.

I've been spending most of my time with you cause I want to.

But I still can't have me being yours.

Eventhough every part of me wanna be yours forever.

I went to your direction knowing every bright little thing shines on your side.

Iloveyouwithallmyheartandsoul.

For You

I think I've shaded my tears,

5 times or more,

this year,

for you.

Words after words

A lot of shits happened today.

Just wanted to find you right when I reached home.

You said that you missed me and that you wanted to find me today.

But today you were different,

You find all sorts of reason to not find me or even want to see me today.

And when I wanted to, you have plans.

But you never ever suggest to find me at night.

If you want to go out with your friends without me then just say so la.

It's not like I won't let you or give you space or whatever.

You don't have to give such idiot excuses.

If you say your excuse is not anywhere close to idiot,

Then why can you still go out rather than finding me which you'd already promised?

You said before that if you reject my invitation, you'll reject others too if you're sick.

I've stayed up till 5 in the morning cause I know I'll see you tomorrow

And so when you get my surprise it'll be fresh.

But no, my hardwork doesn't pay off for you.

You'll never remember your words.

You'll never understand me.

I don't know what the hell am I doing.

Rolling tears down my cheeks.

Following my mums heartbroken footsteps?

Mum gave me a green flag for you,

Knows those heart shaped are yours,

Willingly volunteered to fetch me to see you,

Saying you're better than my brothers.

But what am I doing?

Why is god punishing me?

Is what I've done not enough?

Is what I've done wrong?

Is my grades not good enough?

Have I ever did this to you?

Have I not love you enough?

I don't know why when I'm always in my deepest shits,

You're either having fun or not here for me.

Tears shall be my drugs for tonight.

Tiga Kata - KRU

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cAo2HoiAtfs&feature=related

Yeah..lagu ni ditujukan kepada mereka yang sudah lupa erti cinta

Hanya 3 kata sahaja

cukup besar maksudnya

Wo ai ni

I love you

Aku cinta padamu

Tiga kata paling bermakna

Tapi jarangnya didengar

Naan unnai kathalikaraen

Saranghaeyo

Aishiteru

Tiga kata paling menyentuh

Tapi jarangnya disebut

Mungkinkah kerna kita dah terlalu selesa

Keintiman seolah semakin hambar

Dari gerak gaya

Hingga ke tutur kata

Tak menggambarkan cinta

(chorus)

Wo ai ni

I love you

Aku cinta padamu

Tiga kata paling bermakna

Tapi jarangnya didengar

Naan unnai kathalikaraen

Saranghaeyo

Aishiteru

Tiga kata paling menyentuh

Tapi jarangnya disebut

Katakan ci..cinta ci..cinta kamu

Katakan ci..cinta ci..cinta

Walaupun kita saling

Sayang satu sama lain

Tapi kenapa sukar meluahkan rasa

Berikan mereka tahu

Andainya hari esok

Di takdirkan berpisah

(rap)

Dalam kesibukan

Kita seringkali mula hilang kemesraaan

Dengan mereka disisi

Tak rasa bersyukur

Tak rasa berbangga

Mempunyai bahu setia untuk kita bersandar

Pejamkan matamu

Lihat lah di hatiku

Semua kasih terhimpun,

Dibiarkan terkurung

Jadi keluarkan

Sekarang luahkan

(korus)

Katakan ci..cinta ci..cinta kamu

Katakan ci..cinta ci..cinta (aku cinta padamu)

Wo aini..I Love You

Najwa Latif - Carta Hati

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KjE6mPKA_3M&feature=related

hmm.. hoo.. haaa.. mmm..

Engkau duduk di situ

Diam tersipu malu

Mahu mendekati aku

Aku mulai resah

Hatiku jadi kebah

Melihat dirimu aku rebah

Tapi hati ini kuat menyatakan

Kau terkini duduk di carta hati

Lalu cinta kita bermula

Dari mata turun ke jiwa

Dari teman menjadi cinta

Dan berjanji untuk setia

Sehidup semati kita

Menjanjikan bahagia

Untuk kita berdua selamanya

hmm.. hoo.. lalala.. mmm..

Jangan engkau jangan pergi

Jangan tinggalku sendiri

Jangan tinggalkan carta hati

Kau janji kan bahagia

Ku janji kau tak terluka

Teruslah berada di carta hati kita

lalalalala.. hooo...

lalalalala.. mmm…

Lalu cinta kita bermula

Dari mata turun ke jiwa

Dari teman menjadi cinta

Dan berjanji untuk setia

Sehidup semati kita

Menjanjikan bahagia

Untuk kita berdua selama-lamanya

hmm.. hoo.. lalala.. mmm..

Johann's 19th

yeah!

awesomest durian cake ever!!!!

s2!!

Love

i'm sorry i questioned you

i wanted to know if you're really into it or not.

i know it's my mistake

although it didn't seem like you were mad at me.

i really don't know what to say right now

all i know is i can't concentrate.

the music playing by my ear everywhere i am

is the only thing that constantly talks to me

without me replying to every word they say.

i don't wanna run away.

i will tear,

i will tear,

but i won't run away.

i will fight in every way

to be better

to achieve better

to be whoever i want to be

to solve everything i face, with you.

Justice

if you know what does justice meant,

i wouldn't be sensitive.

i wouldn't judge nor will i be a bitch.

you never knew what it meant since i was born.

and you, you still think that we're equal? please.

i think am like the cheapest one here.

gosh, when i want something,

i don't get it.

when they want something similar,

they get it even if they ask after me.

if you get us the same thing,

i always get the worst one.

like wth.

always them first, me last.

why? just because their older?

i super no mood d.

fuck la.

and you still wonder why am i the rebel one?

because you don't give justice to all.

when all anger accumulates that's what you get,

me.

i tolerated for years,

but it will never be the same as last time i was some dumbassshit.

Relax, relaxed

besides school,

i've already been out of the house like more than i used to.

partying and lunch-ing.

well, i do need to relax myself. :)

refresh my mind. :)

be more happy, and less day dreaming. :)

walking takes my mind off things. :)

yesterday took a cab alone to empire.

cost 13 bucks.

luckily my taxi driver was friendly! :D

he's nice. :)

i don't know but all the cab i took, the driver are nice. :)

so anyways.

went empire and parade then empire again.

alone for 7 hours i guess?

super crazy.

went walking around.

then decided to check out the cinema in parade.

wanted to watch the nowshowingsoicangoinandrelaxmyfeet movie.

so without thinking i bought the weirdest show.

only guys will buy.

City On Fire.

like what?

ya, it's about bombing, wars, death, and on and on and on.

there was like 5 people in that freezing cold cinema

and i was the youngest and only girl there.

after that walk walk walk some more.

then went plaster painting.

OMG! if i had my cam with me,

i would take picture of my chu-chu train before they wax it!

the guy dunno how to wax it.

he just use the brush and swipe few swipes on it and nah! :(

then it was in this huge plastic box.

which my train hit every wall of it and the color came off.

damn disappointed. :(

which i spent like 3 hours perfect-kan it! :(

then went popular read a super interesting book.

stood up and read for an hour?

waiting for bro to pick me up and go for Navin's oh-so-awesome-party.

mum came at 12.30?

and the night ended.

today woke up and went Ana's open house. :)

ahaha. super 1 malaysia. :)

maybe it's just our awesome class. :)

today's 16th sept btw. :)

then it was tuition.

and then parade to wait for bro.

mph read another funny book. :)

and the day ended here on my lappiee. :)

finals in 2 weeks and guess what?

i haven't study since so much things blast up on me.

tomorrow suppose to go for another party. bbq.

but am going down malacca! :)

guess won't be studying this week either.

i wonder which wk will i start studying. :(

I'm a shadow.

Can you see?

Give me one moment in time

Each day I live, I want to be
A day to give the best of me
I'm only one, but not alone
My finest day is yet unknown

I broke my heart for every gain
To taste the sweet, I faced the pain
I rise and fall, yet through it all
This much remains

I want one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heart beat away
And the answers are all up to me

Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel, I will feel eternity

I've lived to be the very best
I want it all, no time for less
I've laid the plans, now lay the chance
Here in my hands

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heart beat away
And the answers are all up to me

Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel, I will feel eternity

You're a winner for a lifetime
If you seize that one moment in time, make it shine

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heart beat away
And the answers are all up to me

Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will be, I will be, I will be free, I will be, I will be free

Love Drunk.

Top down in the summer sun
The day we met was like a hit-and-run
And I still taste it on my tongue (taste it on my tongue)
The sky was burning up like fireworks
You made me want you oh so bad it hurt
But girl in case you haven’t heard

I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over
I’ll love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it’s just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye
Cause just one sip would make me sick
I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over
I’ll love you forever, but now it’s over

Hot sweat and blurry eyes
We’re spinning round a rollercoaster ride
The world stuck in black and white
You drove me crazy every time we touched
Now I’m so broken that I can’t get up
Oh girl you make me such a lush

I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over
I’ll love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it’s just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye
Cause just one sip would make me sick
I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over
I’ll love you forever, but now it’s over

All the time I wasted on you
All the bullshit you put me through
Checking into rehab cause everything that we had
Didn’t mean a thing to you
I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over
I’ll love you forever, but now I'm sober

I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over
I’ll love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it’s just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye
Cause just one sip would make me sick
I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over
I’ll love you forever, but now it’s over

Now it’s over
Can taste it on my tongue
Now It’s over…

Pharm Pharm Pharmacy

HEE! :)

it's 4 and i'm suppose to sleep!! :P

but i just remembered that i'm suppose to post something!

I've made up my mind to take

PHARMACY!

well, not really.

my mum chose it.

but i've got nothing against it. :)

and and I saw brochures of colleges that specialised in Pharmacy!

i know it's still SUPER DUPER EARLY!

but i gotta start analyze first. :P

so i read here and there then i got my mind set to

either

UCSI or MSU

(i wanted to write bout this cause i went klia today and saw MSU on the way)

but my ppl say MSU majority *herm*

but i don't mind cause

when i transfered in form 2 i was in a class full of *herm* for 3 months

and i think they're friendly.

maybe cause everyone's friendly.

but anyhow,

mummy suggest me to go

MONASH or overseas la.

i always wanted to study overseas!

it's a dream that is the least hope to come true.

unless i find a scholarship. :(

ya and that's why i'm searching.

but i've no idea what are they talking about in their conds.

so hardddddddd!!!

mummy say if i wanna study overseas i gotta get a scholarship

either by applying with spm result if good

or apply now with current academic and co-curriculum

which obviously i put bout the past.

of course la!

1 whole box of medals don't use damn sad. :P

OH OH! and mummy say she's willing to pay for me to go MONASH!

although i suggest MSU and UCSI which is cheaper and not that high expectation. :)

i think she has high hopes on me. :)

i'm a good girl. :D

owww, fought with mummy today.

cried and emo-ed the whole afternoon.just couldn't find the answer for love.

mummy's now in the sky landing in china soon.

mummy safe trip enjoy yourself and buy back alot alot alot of pressieeeeeeee for me! :)

I LOVE SURPRISESSS!!!!!!! :D

Nobody like you

"so long to your sunny days it's the rain that's been pouring in my head"

that song, well it drowned me for days till you came to lift me out of my bed

i heard love can sing to your heart well baby you've orchestrated and opus

all my words were just falling apart till your melody stuck in my head

and i said...

she's the one who gets me

she's the one who cares

im so, im so lucky it's true

i aint gonna find anyone quite like you

her love, it's a funny thing cause she brings the best out of my laughs

and ill i know dont mean nothing, you see

cause every way she moves the rules break around me

i used to look up at the stars and see nothing

but now your constellation's shooting farther than titan

she's the one who gets me

she's the one who cares

im so, im so lucky it's true

i aint gonna find anyone quite like you

she's the one who gets me

she's the one who cares

im so, im so lucky it's true

i aint gonna find anyone quite like you

baby, baby, i've fallen into love

steady, steady, im never getting up

tell me, tell me, hey honey does your heart feel every word?

my tongues tied up, im stumbling through verbs to catch my breath from leaving me for good

just know tomorrow when we wake up we will still be dreaming

she's the one who gets me

she's the one who cares

im so, im so lucky it's true

i aint gonna find anyone quite like you

she's the one who gets me

she's the one who cares

im so, im so lucky it's true

i aint gonna find anyone quite like you